Live True, Love True

Does one take every opportunity they get to get ahead in life?

or do they stop and ponder on its existence?

The Thinker or The Opportunist

I have often fallen into situations I could barely get out of, most of the time when i don’t realize the potential danger of taking an action or making that decision. I think too much to also really realise how good an offer is and at times let good offers go to waste.

It’s a real issue with me.. I find it good to think about things, but i find it bad to let things slip by without trying. So i try.. i try in hopes that it will turn out the way its supposed to. Some do, some don’t.

I usually think far ahead compared to others, so far at times, that i get misunderstood. My intentions are misunderstood and because of it, i lose more than i could ever gain with their support. Most people who don’t understand me, tend to be hostile or better yet, pretencious around me most of the time, which i find disturbing.

But to some extent, I am an opportunist but not much of an aggressive one. I hate being offensive and I hate hurting people. People like me are bound to a certain law in life, and because of that, i’ll probably be forever poor. Lol

Speaking of opportunities… I got one yesterday evening. My college miss called me and left me a message on my voicemail. Well, you see, i missed a couple of classes and just started going back yesterday, so you can understand why i’d be nervous when my dean calls my cell.

She gave me a proposal…. a proposal that could complete my education and also end my fears of looking for a job. They want to hire me, as a Lecturer while paying me, and also pay for my fees for my degree.

I was speechless.. Did i make such a big impact with them during my 2 years of studies? It clearly was a once in a life time offer… even my brother thinks i should just jump into it.

But me? a Lecturer? My mom was a teacher yes… a good one too.. but me? I’m really not sure if could be up to the task when it came to teaching and im sure if i took the offer, i’d be bounded to KDU for quite some time… which means.. if i don’t like the profession, i’d be pretty depressed for the next couple of years lol… Although the offer hasn’t been finalized, i do hope they come back to me with the details..

Can someone grow to love a profession, like you can grow to love someone? I feel this devotion differs from one another yet almost exactly the same… The question is no longer a "Could you… ", its more of a  "Would you… " as i believe you can grow to love someone, no matter the differences between them.

We can do what we want most of the time but never really took it to ourselves to start off.

What ever we do in our lives is our choice, even if you think there isn’t any other option. There always is.. maybe it won’t be clearly visible, but there always is another option.

We are where we are, because we choose to be where we are, there isn’t anyone else to really blame for who we have become and to where we are going.

In my heart, i hope all goes well and that i can find what i’ve been looking for all my life.. happiness.

Brian.

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